sam smith

i’m not the only one

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ou say I'm crazy 'Cause you don't think I know what you've done But when you call me baby I know I'm not the only one I have loved you for many years Maybe I am just not enough You've made me realize my deepest fear By lying and tearing us up You say I'm crazy..... Sam Smith
you say I’m crazy
‘Cause you don’t think I know what you’ve done
But when you call me baby
I know I’m not the only one
I have loved you for many years
Maybe I am just not enough
You’ve made me realize my deepest fear
By lying and tearing us up
You say I’m crazy….. Sam Smith

sam smith played the 1st united bank center in broomfield last night. one remarkable thing was sam’s genuine humility and down-to-earth quality. he has a smile that makes you smile. and then there’s that voice.

 

 

a night on the town

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Guess it's true, I'm not good at a one-night stand But I still need love 'cause I'm just a man These nights never seem to go to plan I don't want you to leave, will you hold my hand? Oh, won't you stay with me? 'Cause you're all I need This ain't love, it's clear to see But darling, stay with me Why am I so emotional? No, it's not a good look, gain some self-control And deep down I know this never works But you can lay with me so it doesn't hurt Oh, won't you stay with me? 'Cause you're all I need This ain't love, it's clear to see But darling, stay with me Oh, won't you stay with me? 'Cause you're all I need This ain't love, it's clear to see But darling, stay with me Oh, won't you stay with me? 'Cause you're all I need This ain't love, it's clear to see But darling, stay with me.... Sam Smith
Guess it’s true, I’m not good at a one-night stand
But I still need love ’cause I’m just a man
These nights never seem to go to plan
I don’t want you to leave, will you hold my hand?
Oh, won’t you stay with me?
‘Cause you’re all I need
This ain’t love, it’s clear to see
But darling, stay with me
Why am I so emotional?
No, it’s not a good look, gain some self-control
And deep down I know this never works
But you can lay with me so it doesn’t hurt
Oh, won’t you stay with me?
‘Cause you’re all I need
This ain’t love, it’s clear to see
But darling, stay with me
Oh, won’t you stay with me?
‘Cause you’re all I need
This ain’t love, it’s clear to see
But darling, stay with me
Oh, won’t you stay with me?
‘Cause you’re all I need
This ain’t love, it’s clear to see
But darling, stay with me…. Sam Smith

my friend tommie called today and offered a ticket (box seat) to see sam smith with george ezra at the 1st bank center in broomfield on monday 1/26/15. i can’t remember feeling so blessed. thank you tomm. and wow. i think i really need this. and george ezra too! re-wow!

today was a really lovely day.

ARTIST INFORMATION

When he was 18 years old, Sam Smith wrote his first truthful song, a flashbulb moment for the brilliant blue-eyed soul singer. Three years later and the song has long since been discarded as a naive folly. Like all singer songwriters that are rich in emotion, knee-deep in their own small personal complications and dependent on their precociously youthful talent to engage with the world, Sam resolved never to write a song again that didn’t connect straight from the heart. The first set of results, delivered with breathtaking vocal depth and range, will be put to the litmus test of public opinion when his debut album drops in 2014.
When he reached number one on the singles chart this year, collaborating with London production wizard Naughty Boy, on the insanely catchy global smash La, La, La, Sam Smith didn’t feel triumphant. He felt relief. ‘It’s almost like a little gift,’ he says. ‘Now I’ve had a number one I don’t feel that pressure. Of course I want the songs to do well but it’s about making an artistic statement. The focus is more selfish now. I’ve ticked that box off, it was lovely, amazing in a way, but I can concentrate on other things.’
Anyone that has seen Sam touring and tearing medium sized venues to pieces with his lacerating grief ballad Lay Me Down will have spotted the more innate appeal of his artistry and its special potential to move at mass market. Sam is a big, softly spoken man who translates musically through the humility of his phrasing. ‘I write exactly as I speak,’ he notes. He was born in 1992 in the small Cambridgeshire satellite town Linton to a mother making significant waves in the financial industry and a househusband father who took over the day care of Sam and his two younger sisters. His mother, he says, is ‘amazing. There have been strong women in my life from a very young age. My great aunt was one of the first ever female bankers. You would never call my dad a weak man but it was always a female dominated family. The oestrogen is high, which playARTIST INFORMATIONed into my love of music.’
The house was full of soul music and young Sam developed an uncanny ear for the phrasing of female powerhouse vocalists. The first album he remembers moving him was Whitney Houston’s My Love is Your Love, her complete urban revamp delivered on the back of a public pot-smoking scandal. By the age of 8, his parents had noticed his uncanny ability to emote with the same phrasing as Chaka Khan. One of the first songs he understood was Aretha’s Say A Little Prayer. ‘Hearing those female voices, those strong voices probably felt natural to me because of my mum and my aunts. It was always voices when I was growing up, just the emotion and power behind them.’
As can be heard clearly and distinctly on his debut album, Sam is all about the feeling. He was deposited to a local jazz singer teacher in infancy and the first song he learnt the craft and composition of was Frank Sinatra’s Come Fly With Me. By his early teens he was singing back-up for the teacher at prestige jazz gigs in the capital. Sam found his way to part time classes at a London stage school and his vocal coach became another early cheerleader for his young gift. He flitted in and out of the music industry until happening across a manager at an Adele gig. ‘I was sixteen and heckled the support act. I went home that night, onto Myspace and found him to apologise. Three years after that gig I went to another show and he was in that crowd. I asked if he remembered me and he became my manager.’
The first person his new conspirator introduced him to was songwriter Jimmy Napes and collectively they worked together to write Lay Me Down. Jimmy in turn played it to emerging deep house act Disclosure. In his first speculative writing session with the brothers he felt a kinship. Together they wrote Latch, Sam’s first featured chart vocal and the beginnings of the epic Disclosure tale. ‘I’m a pop head. I always was. I never got carried away with what was cool at school like the other kids did,’ he says, of meeting them. ‘They’re amazing boys though and they pushed down so many barriers for me, they introduced me to D’Angelo, so much stuff which I now love. They introduced me to dance music. I’d listen to music with no
vocals in it and think what is the point? But they schooled me through dance history. They understand it.’
Between smashing it on guest vocal performances, Sam was crafting his own unique songs. ‘I said to myself, I don’t want to have a genre. ‘I wanted to take a risk’. In the course of putting it together, Sam has worked with so many blue chip collaborative names: Fraser T Smith, Two Inch Punch, Eg White. But he has retained his sense of self. After his sublime debut EP entitled ‘Nirvana’, his first full release will be the albums big pop moment, Do It For The Love, a song that sounds like an instant, out of the box smash. But there is melancholia within. Centring on the subject on an unrequited love, it is duty bound to make the listener a little teary as it uplifts. ‘I think so. I’ve been talking about album titles and people are saying “oh but it’s too sad” but that’s what it’s about. I was sad and I wrote about being sad. Hopefully I’ll be happier soon and I’ll write about that.’
His musical purity is starting to ring the right bells. Adele has tweeted her support. After one single show in New York he has become something of a cause celebre for global soulman, Maxwell. ‘He’s a great friend to have.’ He recently finished sessions in Old Street with Nile Rodgers for an as yet unconfirmed Disclosure work. He ties to Jessie Ware, Naughty Boy and that whole scene of London underground talent that is taking their new soul to the mainstream. Sam Smith might yet be at the vanguard of a wave of British talent schooled through the verbal brilliance of Jill Scott, India Arie and Angie Stone in the States a decade ago. Audaciously, he is covering Anita Baker’s Sweet Love on tour at the moment and making it sound as if it were penned for him.
Why does he believe stardom beckons? ‘When it came to writing and delivering I’d worked out that it was all about truth. When you listen to my album, the songs I love and my label love, it’s all the personal things. That are relatable to other people.’

 

this bird has flown

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“Control leads to compliance; autonomy leads to engagement.”  ― Daniel H. Pink
“Control leads to compliance; autonomy leads to engagement.”
― Daniel H. Pink

 

it is time to fly. i have had the most wonderful couple of weeks saying goodbye and good luck to clients. i know that i have had an incredible adventure. i put in my last hours at the local public hospital, and despite the fact that the final 6 months have been like watching flies writhe around helplessly in a pool of clover honey, i am leaving with a fondness for helping others and a stronger and more solid belief in education and in the priniciples and the miracles that recovery bring. i know this to be true in my own life.

i was looking for quotes to place beneath the cardinal enjoying his freedom and i came across several from the author of “drive”- daniel h. pink. they have captured my imagination. from what i can surmise, his premise in “drive” is his sharing what he has found to be authentic inspiration for growth and greatness in the workplace in lieu of the circumstances that create a deadhead approach to work and living. the shortest distance between two points may be a straight line, however a longer more circuitous journey may bring a much higher yield in the long run.

i heartily relate to this idea that compliance is not at all linked to productivity, profit, or creativity. compliance  is merely putting blinders on or shackles. it sucks the yellow and blue out of the day.

i  left the safety of the nest i had built. i have no straight line. i will fly. i keep saying to myself that i have to believe in myself and in my life. and here is where the rubber meets the road. i do believe in myself and i welcome into my life wonderful wonderful things. and i am flying again towards inspiration and motivation. wings- don’t fail me now….

Drive Quotes 
 
“The ultimate freedom for creative groups is the freedom to experiment with new ideas. Some skeptics insist that innovation is expensive. In the long run, innovation is cheap. Mediocrity is expensive—and autonomy can be the antidote.”   TOM KELLEY General Manager, IDEO” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“Greatness and nearsightedness are incompatible. Meaningful achievement depends on lifting one’s sights and pushing toward the horizon.” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“Newtonian physics runs into problems at the subatomic level. Down there–in the land of hadrons, quarks, and Schrödinger’s cat–things gent freaky. The cool rationality of Isaac Newton gives way to the bizarre unpredictability of Lewis Carroll.” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“The monkeys solved the puzzle simply because they found it gratifying to solve puzzles. They enjoyed it. The joy of the task was its own reward.” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“The problem with making an extrinsic reward the only destination that matters is that some people will choose the quickest route there, even if it means taking the low road. Indeed, most of the scandals and misbehavior that have seemed endemic to modern life involve shortcuts.” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“People can have two different mindsets, she says. Those with a “fixed mindset” believe that their talents and abilities are carved in stone. Those with a “growth mindset” believe that their talents and abilities can be developed. Fixed mindsets see every encounter as a test of their worthiness. Growth mindsets see the same encounters as opportunities to improve.” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“Human beings have an innate inner drive to be autonomous, self-determined, and connected to one another. And when that drive is liberated, people achieve more and live richer lives.” 
― Daniel H. PinkDrive: The Surprising Truth About What Motivates Us
“Goals may cause systematic problems for organizations due to narrowed focus, unethical behavior, increased risk taking, decreased cooperation, and decreased intrinsic motivation. Use care when applying goals in your organization.” 

 

selkie as metaphor

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One particularly frightening and prevalent legend of the merrow tells the tale of male merrows who capture the drowned souls of sailors and put them into pots. These pots stay at the bottom of the sea, never to release the poor sailors' souls...unless a willing human being were to release them. The male merrows were said to be downright malevolent and awfully ugly. Perhaps this is why we have stories of female merrows seducing human men. The females would seduce sailors and other young men by singing to them (similar to the Greek sirens), and then drag them under the waves to the bottom of the sea. No one knows what happened to these men, though some believed they stayed alive in a state of enchantment. Others believed they were drowned and killed. One particularly interesting aspect of these Gaelic legends is that the merrows were only able to swim underwater with the aid of magic - a magical red "cap" to be exact. If a person was to steal this cap and not return it to the merrow, the merrow would then be unable to return to his/her home under water. In one legend, an Irish man is granted use of the red cap so that he can visit a male merrow's home under the sea.
One particularly frightening and prevalent legend of the merrow tells the tale of male merrows who capture the drowned souls of sailors and put them into pots. These pots stay at the bottom of the sea, never to release the poor sailors’ souls…unless a willing human being were to release them. The male merrows were said to be downright malevolent and awfully ugly. Perhaps this is why we have stories of female merrows seducing human men. The females would seduce sailors and other young men by singing to them (similar to the Greek sirens), and then drag them under the waves to the bottom of the sea. No one knows what happened to these men, though some believed they stayed alive in a state of enchantment. Others believed they were drowned and killed.
One particularly interesting aspect of these Gaelic legends is that the merrows were only able to swim underwater with the aid of magic – a magical red “cap” to be exact. If a person was to steal this cap and not return it to the merrow, the merrow would then be unable to return to his/her home under water. In one legend, an Irish man is granted use of the red cap so that he can visit a male merrow’s home under the sea.

the idea of the selkie seems universal to me. even kafka eluded to the creature living out of it element and comfort zone withing the story of gregor samsa in “metamorphosis”. and my new favorite comparison to that image of samsa writhing on his bed after becoming a cockroach as he struggled to recognize who he had become is beautifully rendered in the film “12 years a slave” with a scene of the main character chained to a cellar floor, stripped of the physical connections to his identity, pulling and writhing in the dark, almost blindly trying to figure out where he was and who he had been before now. david byrne (and talking heads) wrote “where is that beautiful house, where is my beautiful wife, how did i get here?”

it has been part of my journey to find myself feeling captured and/or washed ashore. weak from the effects of the foreign elements around me, i have struggled trying to remember just who i am and where i came from and more importantly where i am going. i felt fearful of almost everything. fearful of the current routines, fearful of the stories i hear, fearful of my own instincts, because my sense of grounding is so obliterated.

as ernie larsen discusses so eloquently in his writings about emotional sobriety, it is a wondrous and often mesmerizing task to unveil the truth about who we are and how we are. i am humbled during this process. i never imagined that my agenda could be so self-involved. yet it is. i am embarrassed at my own immaturity as well as the magnitude of my ego.

my buddhist readings teach me to lean into these uncomfortable positions in life. so damn hard to do when every fiber in my being wants to fill the void with my ego and my fear.  so i continue to find myself writhing around trying to remember who i am and where i am. thank heaven it is called spirtual practice. that’s exactly what i need more of- practice.

But what fascinated me most were the stories of selkies — seals who could shed their skins and take human form. “The seas around Orkney and Shetland harbor the shy Selkies or Seal-Faeries (known as the Roane in Ireland). A female Selkie is able to discard her seal skin and come ashore as a beautiful maiden. If a human can capture His skin, the selkie can be forced to become a fine, if wistful, wife. However, should she ever find her skin she immediately returns to the sea, leaving the husband to pine and die. The males raise storms and upturn boats to avenge the indicriminate slaughter of the seals.” — Brian Froud and Alan Lee, “Faeries”

float

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David Hockney Quote Listening is a positive act: you have to put yourself out to do it. David Hockney
David Hockney Quote
Listening is a positive act: you have to put yourself out to do it.
David Hockney

3/31/14

i have just returned from a bi-annual check up. i have a good relationship with my doctor. he asks me what’s been going on in my life and how i am doing. i talk about some stress, some over eating, some depression, some things that are working well.

he shares the results of recent bloodwork. i am expecting all good news. mostly it is, but there are reasons to have concern. i have gained weight over the last few years. i am eating too much sugar and although not diabetic, i am tipping. there is a repeat of blood in my urine which could mean several things – if anything. i might have to change my hiv meds. i might have to dig deeper (ouch) to find if it might be early signs of kidney cancer. swabs of my cheeks are taken to determine of i might be a good candidate for an alternative nrti and nnrti combination med. it is almost time for another colonoscopy.

this was a tall drink of water for me today. nothing immediate, but much more to think about than i prefer.  i have been hiv positive since 1985, so truthfully all this time is bonus. that is my bassline. i know that in my heart and in my head. but sometimes, i whelm over when i hear all these things i have to be on the lookout for.  i escaped “carousel” already- but not forever.

i have recently stumbled upon sam smith’s voice during my online treks. his range and his volume have captivated me. the sounds seem other-worldly to me or at least transcendent. i could listen to him over and over- and prolly do. hopefully you will hit play while you peruse these 100 quotes about yoga and happiness.

 

Here are 100 quotes I find inspiring:(reposted from elephantjournal.com)

1. “Better indeed is knowledge than mechanical practice. Better than knowledge is meditation. But better still is surrender of attachment to results, because there follows immediate peace.“ Bhagavad Gita.

2. “When you don’t have any money, the problem is food. When you have money, it’s sex. When you have both, it’s health.” Marilyn Monroe.

3. “Our bodies are our gardens—our wills are our gardeners.“ Shakespeare.

4. “It is health that is the real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.“ Mahatma Gandhi.

5. “Wellness is a connection of paths: knowledge and action.”  Joshua Welch.

6. “He who takes medicine and neglects to diet wastes the skill of his doctors.” Chinese Proverb.

7. “It’s bizarre that the produce manager is more important to my children’s health than the pediatrician.“ Meryl Streep.

8. “He who has health has hope and he who has hope has everything.“ Arabian Proverb.

9. ”Nobody can hurt me without my permission.” Gandhi.

10. “When the mind is exhausted of images, it invents its own.“ Gary Snyder.

11. “The gift of learning to meditate is the greatest gift you can give yourself in this lifetime.“ Sogyal Rinpoche.

12. “The part can never be well unless the whole is well.” Plato.

13. “Learning to let go should be learned before learning to get. Life should be touched, not strangled. You’ve got to relax, let it happen at times, and at others move forward with it.” Ray Bradbury.

14. “You only lose what you cling to.” Siddhārtha Gautama Buddha.

15. Watch this TEDx video about “The Happiness Advantage.”

16. “If while on your way you meet no one your equal or better, steadily continue on your way alone. There is no fellowship with fools.” Dhammapada.

17. “What each of us believes in is up to us, but life is impossible without believing in something. “ Kentetsu Takamori.

18. “Do not ask for less responsibility to be free and relaxed—ask for more strength!“ Shengyan.

19. ”We don’t realize that, somewhere within us all, there does exist a supreme self who is eternally at peace.” -Eat, Pray Love

20. “Meditation brings wisdom; lack of meditation leaves ignorance. Know well what leads you forward and what holds you back, and choose the path that leads to wisdom.“ Buddha.

21. “Health and cheerfulness naturally beget each other.” Joseph Addison.

22. “Diseases of the soul are more dangerous and more numerous than those of the body.” Cicero.

23. “Lack of activity destroys the good condition of every human being, while movement and methodical physical exercise save it and preserve it.” Plato.

24. “You can set yourself up to be sick, or you can choose to stay well.” Wayne Dyer.

25. “Want to be happy? Just be yourself.”Author Unknown.

26. “The most important pieces of equipment you need for doing yoga are your body and your mind.“ Rodney Yee.

27. “Yoga teaches us to cure what need not be endured and endure what cannot be cured.” BK Iyengar.

28. “Do it with passion- or not at all.”

29. “A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor’s book.” Irish Proverb.

30. “The affairs of the world will go on forever. Do not delay the practice of meditation.“ Milepa.

31. “Water, air  and cleanliness are the chief articles in my pharmacopoeia.“ Napoleon I.

32. “Change is not something that we should fear. Rather, it is something that we should welcome. For without change, nothing in this world would ever grow or blossom, and no one in this world would ever move forward to become the person they’re meant to be.” Author Unknown.

33. “Yoga is the fountain of youth. You’re only as young as your spine is flexible.” Bob Harper.

34. The Hidden Power of Smiling (watch this).

35. “Simplify” Author Unknown.

36. “Being the richest man in the cemetery doesn’t matter to me. Going to bed at night saying we’ve done something wonderful—that’s what matters to me.” Steve Jobs.

37. “Yoga is 99% practice and 1% theory.” Sri Pattabhi Jois.

38. “The beauty is that people often come here for the stretch, and leave with a lot more” Liza Ciano.

39. “Don’t just do something—sit there!” Unknown Yoga Quote.

40. “To perform every action artfully is yoga.“ Swami Kripalu.

41. “Yoga has a sly, clever way of short circuiting the mental patterns that cause anxiety.” Baxter Bal.

42. “Yoga is invigoration in relaxation. Freedom in routine. Confidence through self control. Energy within and energy without.” Ymber Delecto.

43. “Inhale, and God approaches you. Hold the inhalation, and God remains with you. Exhale, and you approach God. Hold the exhalation, and surrender to God.“ Krishnamacharya.

44. “Anyone who practices can obtain success in yoga but not one who is lazy. Constant practice alone is the secret of success.” Hatha Yoga Pradipika.

45. “You control your happiness, no one else.” Author Unknown.

46. “Yoga is the practice of quieting the mind.” Patanjali.

47. “Yoga is the perfect opportunity to be curious about who you are.” Jason Crandell.

48. Healing Through Diet: http://embed.ted.com/talks/dean_ornish_on_healing.html.

49. “Yoga exists in the world because everything is linked.” Desikashar.

50. “Through meditation and by giving full attention to one thing at a time, we can learn to direct attention where we choose.” Eknath Easwaran.

51. “The best way out is always through.” Robert Frost.

52. “The groundwork for all happiness is good health.” Leigh Hunt.

53. “Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard. Practice wellness. Play with abandon. Laugh. Choose with no regret. Appreciate your friends. Continue to learn. Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is.” Mary Radmacher.

54. “The ability to be in the present moment is a major component of mental wellness.” Abraham Maslow.

55. “Happiness is a state of inner fulfillment, not the gratification of inexhaustible desires for outward things.” Matthieu Ricard.

56. “Let food be thy medicine and medicine be thy food.“ Hippocrates.

57. “Garbage in garbage out.“ George Fuechsel.

58. “Take care of your body. It’s the only place you have to live. “ Jim Rohn.

59. “Live, travel, adventure, bless and don’t be sorry “ Jack Kerouac.

60. “A mind free from all disturbances is Yoga “ Patanjali.

61. “All of man’s difficulties are caused by his inability to sit, quietly, in a room by himself. “ Blaise Pascal.

62. “Worries are pointless. If there’s a solution, there’s no need to worry. If no solution exists, there’s no point to worry.“ Matthieu Ricard.

63. “Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape.“Author Unknown.

64. “The yoga pose that you avoid the most you need the most.” Author Unknown.

65. “Intelligence comes into being when the mind, the heart and the body are really harmonious.” J Krishnamurti.

66. “Every time you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask if you want to be a prisoner of the past, or a pioneer of the future.” Deepak Chopra.

67. “In the midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you.” Deepak Chopra.

68. “Make the driving force in your life love.” Dr. Oz.

69. “You must find the place inside yourself where nothing is impossible.“ Deepak Chopra.

70. “If you want to find God, hang out in the space between your thoughts.” Alan Cohen.

71. “Happiness is a state of inner fulfillment.“ Matthieu Ricard.

72. “When you live your life with an appreciation of coincidences and their meanings, you connect with the underlying field of infinite possibilities.” Deepak Chopra.

73. “That one I love who is incapable of ill will, and returns love for hatred. Living beyond the reach of I and mind, and of pain and pleasure, full of mercy, contented, self-controlled, with all his heart and all his mind given to me—such a one I am in love. “Bhagavad Gita.

74. “A man should look for what is, and not for what should be.“ Albert Einstein.

75. “Happiness consists in realizing it is all a great strange dream “Jack Kerouac.

76. “Happiness makes up in height for what it lacks in length.” Robert Frost.

77. “Happiness is not a state to arrive at, but a manner of traveling.” … Margaret Lee Runbeck
78. “Fear less, hope more; eat less, chew more; whine less, breathe more; talk less, say more; hate less, love more; and all good things are yours.” Swedish Proverb.

79. “Your health is a state of mind.” Author Unknown.

80. “Sleep is the best meditation.“ Dalai Lama.

81. “Silence is not silent. Silence speaks. It speaks most eloquently. Silence is not still. Silence leads. It leads most perfectly.” Sri Chinmoy.

82. ”Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without.” Gautama Buddha.

83. “You pray for good health and a body that will be strong in old age. Good—but your rich foods block the gods’ answer and tie Jupiter’s hands.” Persius.

84. “To keep the body in good health is a duty, otherwise we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear.” Buddha.

85. “Yoga is almost like music in a way; there’s no end to it.” Sting.

86. “Yoga science is not just a scholarly pursuit. It is a moment by moment and thought by thought practical guide for living. “ Leonard Perlmutter.

87. “This yoga should be practiced with firm determination and perseverance, without any mental reservation or doubts.” Bhagavad Gita.

88. “We all wish for world peace, but world peace will never be acheived unless we first establish peace within our own minds.“ Geshe Kelsang Gyatso.

89. “You are an aperture through which the universe is looking at and exploring itself.” Alan Wilson Watts.

90. “The best fighter is never angry.” Lao Tzu.

91. “Even if things don’t unfold the way you expected, don’t be disheartened or give up. One who continues to advance will win in the end.” Daisaku Ikeda.

92. “We are not going in circles, we are going upwards. The path is a spiral; we have already climbed many steps.” Hermann Hesse.

93. “It is my conviction that there is no way to peace—peace is the way.” Thich Nhat Hanh.

94. ”Don’t move the way fear makes you move. Move the way love makes you move. Move the way joy makes you move.” Osho.

95. “Without inner peace, outer peace is impossible.” Geshe Kelsang Gyatso.

96. “Suffering usually relates to wanting things to be different from the way they are.” Allan Lokos.

97. “Treat every moment as your last. It is not preparation for something else” Shunryu Suzuki.

98. “A man is not called wise because he talks and talks again; but if he is peaceful, loving and fearless then he is in truth called wise.” Siddhārtha Gautama Buddha.

99. “If there is any religion that could respond to the needs of modern science, it would be Buddhism.” Albert Einstein.

100. “If we learn to open our hearts, anyone, including the people who drive us crazy, can be our teacher.” Pema Chödrön.

 

no money on my mind

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"A human being is part of a whole, called by us the 'universe', a part limited in time and space.  He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something separate from the rest  - a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness.  This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affectation for a few people near us.  Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circles of compassion  to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty." "Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one."
“A human being is part of a whole, called by us the ‘universe’, a part limited in time and space.
He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something separate from the rest
– a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness.
This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affectation for a few people near us.
Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circles of compassion
to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.”
“Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.”

i have had quite the week. it seems that the sludge that overran the rivers of virginia may have made its way into the culture in which my days are spent. i have conferred with far too many individuals who have lost their jobs or lost their housing within the last week or so.  it has been a little daunting and a little bit more heart wrenching witnessing others’ emotional self-sabotage patterns trample through their lives like an ever-ready bunny. it’s very much like the 1st half hour of “war of the worlds” or “independence day”- destruction and chaos is rampant. so crazy it seems beyond belief.

there are no easy fixes here. and although i want to feel helpless, it just isn’t so. being present is often the best gift i can offer. and serving up hope is my chopping wood and carrying water at my workplace.  i continue to try to spread it around and hope that it will be of use. then i have to let go of my expectations around that. in 12 step circles this is what may be called a “gold problem” – hard to deal with, but hardly a risk to life and limb.

i got a call from someone who was having difficulty breathing and in distress reporting a 10 day drinking binge. when asked how i could help, i was asked to listen which i tried to do. i did listen for a few minutes and then i brought up detox which was rebuffed as definitely not an option. the hospital came up next and i encouraged a 911 call. there was another couple of minutes of resistance, followed by some desperate sounding moans around statements like “i’m so scared” and “i don’t wanna die like this”. i revisited the 911 call which was received with more embrace. i agreed to remain where i was while the emergency help call was made bargaining for a return call after 911. i got the return call and waited until the paramedics arrived. the breathing pattern was frightening as was the self-judgement on the other end of the line.  it felt like a bracing arctic wind.

i also stood today in a pool of icy disbelief as i discussed a situation with another while they fabricated tales, lied, projected, redirected, and lied again to avoid personal responsibility. the sheer audacity caught me off guard. that and the complete science fiction quality of it all.  i was lied to- blatantly and without regret or concern- lied to (he fretted indignantly).  how very dare you….

of course that was a feeling and a thought that has not been allowed to linger. it does no good whatsoever to talk the talk about breathing in compassion for myself and breathing out compassion for others if i am unable to muster it when a small situation arises.  luckily, muster i have done.

truth be told- i am no different from the suffering and somewhat sedated individuals before me. i have been in those shoes. under the influence of substances and my own shame- enough to the point that untruthing was commonplace and done without care.

i am those suffering souls i see and hear. i experience myself. this angers me at first. but i hope i am drifting to compassion. and then hopefully love.

When the sun will set
Don’t you fret
No I have no money on my mind
No money on my mind
No money on my mind
No I have no money on my mind
No I have no money on my mind
Just love…… Sam Smith “Money on My Mind”