the weekend is here and i am very peaceful. i have made it through an assimilation period (prolly just the 1st) with working and have branched out with a few endeavors. i agreed to do some training for an organization before i realized how much time it would entail and am having second thoughts. i have come to realize that second thoughts are natural and i’m glad to have them before a task starts.
am getting ready to head out of town and will connect with a new friend that i made there last summer. looking forward to this. starting a new recovery support and skills group. i connected with a recovery coach i know who has agreed to participate in this group and i’m now excited.
have also made a couple more steps toward starting the new not-for-profit. the most amazing aspect in all this is encountering my own fear. fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of barriers, fear of confrontation. i read a tumblr window today which said “adventure awaits- go find it” this is just where my head may need to go.
i looked up some 12 step sayings today.
“If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.”
“Happiness keeps You Sweet, Trials keep You Strong, Sorrows keep You Human, Failures keep You Humble, Success keeps You Glowing, But Only God keeps You Going!”
“The sleeper gets nothing but the dream.”
so i post nicolas jaar again today. his sense of sound, syncopation, and juxtaposition give me goose bumps every time. i also appreciate his work ethic and his sense of moving on. he certainly seems an artist. he starts something, collaborates, and moves on. i can definitely relate to this.
questions come and go. certainty fades from light to dark with strange rythym and tone. i know and the i don’t. and then i think i know. color is not crucial today. it’s almost winter after all. introspection has been served up for nearly a month. it’s been a fasting of sorts that has left questions strewn about just like a tsunami might toss around lawn furniture.
and in the aftermath of a hurricane, one cannot deny the loss or struggle. but one definitely needs to let go, clean what debris one can, throw out the junk that’s ruined and re-asses needs and priorities before moving on. the consolation is movin on. not because i really want to, but because i can.
my intention is to start a sunday posting with some exciting (to me) sounds that make up my weekend. today is another offering from “other people” with dave harrington and nico jaar helping to steer this collaboration. the mix starts out with burroughs doing one of his infamous book readings – this one inspiring the title “the soft machine”. (we human beings are the soft machine btw)
i love the music. i hope you do too!
pop music has changed over the years and i have certainly tried to change along with it. much to my dismay, i find that there are many genres out these days that have no spiritual connection to my experience. often times dance music- or techno- seems soul-less and without a story.
this is not the case in terms of nicolas jaar. for some reason he has captured my imagination and my heart. with every release i am reminded that music is about a human story and about an experience. i find myself bopping and tapping with every recording and every play. his imaginative interweaving of new recordings, beats, samples, and live vocals promises me that the magic of performance and the intelligence of storytelling have not frozen. i feel a little more alive with each play.
here is a link to nicolas jaar and dave harrington’s online music magazine “other people”- always worth a look and a listen for me.