jean carne

was that all it was

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"This day is a special day, it is yours. Yesterday slipped away, it cannot be filled anymore with meaning.  About tomorrow nothing is known.  But this day, today, is yours, make use of it.  Today you can make someone happy.  Today you can help another.  This day is a special day, it is yours."
“This day is a special day, it is yours.
Yesterday slipped away, it cannot be filled anymore with meaning.
About tomorrow nothing is known.
But this day, today, is yours, make use of it.
Today you can make someone happy.
Today you can help another.
This day is a special day, it is yours.”

i spent yesterday with 2 groups of guys who are living in a halfway house. there was a distinct difference in the energy of the 2 groups.the first group was packed to the gills and filled with whining, blaming, and posturing. the second was dominated by individuals who are taking responsibility for their situations and trying to make some changes.

i was relieved that the last group was the motivated group. it left me with a sense of hope. it also left me with a sense of ennui. i came home and downloaded some old tunes by a 1970’s recording artist who was popular at some of the clubs i loved. i definitely have lived an amazing life, seen,heard, and participated in astonishing bits of twentieth century culture, and lived a life in vivid technicolor.

is there a connection here? not sure, but after ongoing and intermittent reflection, i believe that today is the miracle in front of me. i can’t change the past, but can change the lens it is viewed through and i can immediately affect the future.

many thanks to jean carne because after all these decades, her voice and her work still inspire me.

was that all it was…… woooooooho…….oohooo

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There are two mistakes one can make along the road to truth...not going all the way, and not starting. - Buddha
There are two mistakes one can make along the road to truth…not going all the way, and not starting. – Buddha

it is strange how my own nature can be so damn bewitching. i am in the process of a pretty major transition and although it has been simmering for several months, it actually moved onto the front burner rather recently.

i have had the good fortune to work with people who can use help. and they allow me to try to help them. this is the part of my daily life that i love the most. i don’t fix anybody ever. i just try to help them see themselves as ok. heaven knows that it took me nearly 50 years to get there- so i have lots of travel information about that journey.

so i am leaving my current format for offering assistance and looking for another. i wonder if i will ever tire of trying too hard or taking it too personally. i don’t know about that. i doubt it really. my emotional vibrations often influence my decisions. i don’t think i like this. i am pretty sure i’m not proud of this.

(yeah-ah was that all it was)
(wooooooho)
(oohooo)
Was that all it was
A way to pass some time
momentary thing
not worth the memory
in the morning
must it be could be cold
something bought and sold
was it just a game
would you recall my name
if you saw me
I wanna be your one love
if we ever meet again (meet again)
now that I’ve been your love
Is this how it’s gonna end?
Will we ever be just friends?
Run to me every now and then
whow-whow-whow-whow-oh
was that all it was
night out on the town
an excersise of will
or what you needed filled
did you use me
I wanna be your one love
if we ever meet again (meet again)
now that I’ve been your love
Is this how it’s gonna end?
Will we ever be just friends?
Run to me every now and then
whow-whow-whow-whow-oh
was that all it was
when you close the door
passion left behind
out of sight and out of mind
gone forever
was that all it was?
was that all it was?
ooh tell me
did you use me?
huh?