belly button birthday

help is on the way

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Do not try to become anything.  Do not make yourself into anything.  Do not be a meditator.  Do not become enlightened.  When you sit, let it be.  What you walk, let it be.  Grasp at nothing.  Resist nothing. If you haven't wept deeply, you haven't begun to meditate.....Buddha
Do not try to become anything.
Do not make yourself into anything.
Do not be a meditator.
Do not become enlightened.
When you sit, let it be.
What you walk, let it be.
Grasp at nothing.
Resist nothing.
If you haven’t wept deeply, you haven’t begun to meditate…..Buddha

 

i got a badge today on wordpress for 8 years of blogging. i was a little taken aback. today is also my belly button birthday- 57 years old. i began blogging about 10 years ago, but on blogger- i added wordpress to see what some of the differences might be and migrated a few years later.

in case you want to see my earlier blog- www.kickintina.wordpress.com

blogging has been a gift from the universe for me. it has helped me stay sane during the chaos of early recovery. i have had a place to write down some of thoughts and impressions when it certainly wasn’t appropriate for me to share those in my daily life.

thank you universe for this gift of expression and outreach. it has literally saved my life. and thank you to all the friends i’ve made along the way- especially mark olmstead, mark s king, willie knoetze, tony radovich, jeremy andrews- all of you have been my homegroup.

Don’t give up the ship
Even when you feel it’s sinking
And you don’t know what to do
Don’t give up your dream
Even though you may be thinking
It never will come true
Life has it’s own ideas of how things come about
And if you just hang in there, life is gonna work it out

Help is on the way
From places you don’t know about today
From friends you may not have met
Yet
Believe me when I say
I know
Help is on the way

You don’t have to know
Where the path you’re on is leading
You just have to walk along
Dreaming as you go
Asking for the things you’re needing
You never can go wrong
If you have faith that things are happening as they should
And just believe each step you take is leading you to something good

Help is on the way
From places you don’t know about today
From friends you may not have met
Yet
Believe me when I say
I know
Help is on the way

So open your heart, Open your mind
No matter how you’ve tried and failed
Tomorrow you could turn and find that

Help is on the way
From places you don’t know about today
From friends you may not have met
Yet
Believe me when I say
I know
Help is on the way
Help is on the way
Help is on the way

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“Life is glorious, but life is also wretched. It is both. Appreciating the gloriousness inspires us, encourages us, cheers us up, gives us a bigger perspective, energizes us. We feel connected. But if that's all that's happening, we get arrogant and start to look down on others, and there is a sense of making ourselves a big deal and being really serious about it, wanting it to be like that forever. The gloriousness becomes tinged by craving and addiction. On the other hand, wretchedness--life's painful aspect--softens us up considerably. Knowing pain is a very important ingredient of being there for another person. When you are feeling a lot of grief, you can look right into somebody's eyes because you feel you haven't got anything to lose--you're just there. The wretchedness humbles us and softens us, but if we were only wretched, we would all just go down the tubes. We'd be so depressed, discouraged, and hopeless that we wouldn't have enough energy to eat an apple. Gloriousness and wretchedness need each other. One inspires us, the other softens us. They go together.”  ― Pema Chödrön, Start Where You Are: A Guide to Compassionate Living
“Life is glorious, but life is also wretched. It is both. Appreciating the gloriousness inspires us, encourages us, cheers us up, gives us a bigger perspective, energizes us. We feel connected. But if that’s all that’s happening, we get arrogant and start to look down on others, and there is a sense of making ourselves a big deal and being really serious about it, wanting it to be like that forever. The gloriousness becomes tinged by craving and addiction. On the other hand, wretchedness–life’s painful aspect–softens us up considerably. Knowing pain is a very important ingredient of being there for another person. When you are feeling a lot of grief, you can look right into somebody’s eyes because you feel you haven’t got anything to lose–you’re just there. The wretchedness humbles us and softens us, but if we were only wretched, we would all just go down the tubes. We’d be so depressed, discouraged, and hopeless that we wouldn’t have enough energy to eat an apple. Gloriousness and wretchedness need each other. One inspires us, the other softens us. They go together.”
― Pema Chödrön, Start Where You Are: A Guide to Compassionate Living

today gives me pause to reflect on my life a bit. 56 years ago i came into this world with both a zeal and a reluctance. i knew there would be adventures and guesstimated that they would be exhilarating. i also knew that there would be challenges and those challenges may just be the finish of me. the gloriousness and the wretchedness have provided the character and depth to my journey. without experiencing such tremendous loss, without struggling with power and control through addiction, without the surrender of acceptance brought on by the weariness of battle, i would not have the grace that peace of mind brings.

i have no real idea if there is a reason for me to still be here. but here i am. thank you universe for providing this amazing voyage. and thank you to all the friends and otherwise in my life. there is no way that life could be as good without you.