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Following Our Hearts

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The train has left the station. It hasn’t been without stops and starts, but it has been steady. This creative part of my psychology remains a mystery somehow. The power of filling an empty space with ideas, concept, strategy, and implementing them is perhaps my favorite high. I have learned over time that this ability and this process is a strength for me.

I so love the process of putting it together. As Sondheim said ” piece by piece, bit by bit” . Never have I indulged myself to the point of considering this art. It seems so much more like business. But it’s really not business if it’s not commerce and it’s certainly not commerce to me.

The Surrounded Event will :

  • Feature at least 5 live musical acts to perform and share some of their recovery.
  • Recognize Community Beacons whose work has impacted Colorado culture.
  • Celebrate Recovery Month in Colorado
  • Bring more attention to the overdose epidemic in Colorado
  • Celebrate the 5280 Recovery High School’s approval in 2017
  • Spotlight 18th Judicial District Problem Solving Courts- ( DRG can network with Amanda Myers – PSC Coordinator) at the event.
  • Raise awareness and funds for Harm Reduction Action Center using the shoes and balloons.
  • Interface with the Reel Recovery Film Festival with CeDAR at SIE.
  • Create and display a photography installation titled “Putting a Face on Recovery” which can be utilized to educate all year.
  • Utilize an Event App to create real-time interaction and data collection from attendants.
  • Enable sponsors to offer giveaways live during the fest to draw people to your booth.
  • Enable participants to pre-register people for the Fair Chance Job Fair at DU the following week.
  • Have a Dental organization to be present to offer screening and opportunity for care.
  • Include outreach and resources for Families affected by Substance Use and Mental Health.

Last year we asked churches and methadone clinics to participate in a shoe drive for the event. It seemed to engage and ignite some empathy with the clients at the clinic-

We would like to ask more if they will participate this year.

Please let me know if I can be of any help or answer any questions.

Mercury in Retrograde

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My friend asked why I had slowed down on blogging and I had to admit that in many ways, I had been feeling what might be the effects of Mercury in Retrograde. I was working on a project that became enmeshed with efforts to control the process by others. It was exhausting really and drained some of the fun for me.

I then witnessed a friend in a relapse and I was literally dumbfounded and stunned to the point that I couldn’t move any direction to address it. It was close to me and it felt toxic and disappointing.

I have made some decisions in this process to let go of some things in my life and to create some change. I am not clear that it this will lead to higher ground, but it is a decision which feels like progress and opens the window to let some light in.

It seems there are two more retrograde periods to survive this year. Can’t say I’m anxiously awaiting these. Maybe if I just stay still and pretend I’m invisible, the effects will pass me by. Sad strategy really- hasn’t worked up to this point.



moving backward; having a backward motion or direction; retiring or retreating.


inverse or reversed, as order.


Chiefly Biology. exhibiting degeneration or deterioration.


We are all influenced when Mercury is in retrograde. But what does this mean? Let us explain …

Sometimes, the other planets appear to be traveling backward through the zodiac; this is an illusion. We call this illusion retrograde motion.

Several times a year, it appears as if Mercury is going backwards. This time was traditionally associated with confusions, delay, and frustration.

Perhaps Mercury’s retrograde periods can cause our plans to go awry. However, this is an excellent time to reflect on the past. Intuition is high during these periods, and coincidences can be extraordinary.


The planet Mercury rules communication, travel, contracts, automobiles, and such. So,when Mercury is retrograde, remain flexible, allow time for extra travel, and avoid signing contracts. Review projects and plans at these times, but wait until Mercury is direct again to make any final decisions.

About a week or two before Mercury retrogrades, finish any tasks or projects at hand. You can’t stop your life, but plan ahead, have back-up plans, and be prepared for angrier people and miscommunication.

Some people blame Mercury retrograde for “bad” things that happen in their lives. Instead, take this time to sit back and review where you put your energy in your life. For example, if family and faith are important to you, are you putting your energies there or just overextended in other areas? Take a moment to reflect.


In 2017, Mercury will be retrograde during:

  • January 1 to 9
  • April 9 to May 3
  • August 13 to September 5
  • December 3 to 23

waiting on the world to change

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it’s so absurd to be making myself as comfortable as i can be while i sit back passively and expect the rest of our planet to grow. yet as stubbornly as a Scotsman can be, i dig my heels in and hold a broken expectation like an antique timepiece trying to tell time.

tic toc…

It’s hard to beat the system
When we’re standing at a distance
So we keep waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change

Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door
And when you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they want

That’s why we’re waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change

It’s not that we don’t care
We just know that the fight ain’t fair
So we keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change

And we’re still waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change

Read more: John Mayer – Waiting On The World To Change Lyrics | MetroLyrics

state of independence

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100% pure sewage ice! by Hong Yichen, Guo Yifei, Zheng Yidi

reposted from saddayfordemocracy

The ‘Polluted Water Popsicles’ project was created by three students of the National Taiwan University of Arts to raise awareness on the problem of pollution in Taiwan.

They crafted more than 100 ice cream popsicles made from the polluted waters of Taiwan’s lakes, rivers, beaches and ports.

The Polluted Water Popsicles project reveals the dramatic state of the waters of our planet with these delicate flavors of waste, heavy metals, plastic, arsenic, mercury, nitrates or lead

Photography by Hung I-chen

It dawns on me that i may be on the threshold of a major both in my own life and in the larger culture that i live within. so many policy changes have been quietly implemented under the guise of negative social drama and it is next to impossible to gauge where we will find ourselves after the orange tinted dust settles. Polluted waterways, rising ocean levels, increased gases in the air, national parks decimated and walmart-ized. I don’t even want to mention the healthcare issue as its such a powder-keg right now. And then our Secretary of State is quoted as saying “we don’t need to be throwing money at the opioid crisis”. Blood boils at hearing this. The crisis is with people, not with opioids. The family that created oxy has had enough help from our government. Enough to be inducted into the billionaires club with Forbes. No it’s the people who got pooped on by crappy prescribing policies that we should be helping. But the vultures are having a heyday.

With all this scavenging going on, it is honestly a challenge to remain calm. All this uproar is beyond my comprehension. I feel overwhelmed most of the time and what I can control is my own reaction and frankly, that’s a tall order at this stage of the game.

My own orbit is in flux. As I craft this perspective though, I realize how connected these two dissonances may actually be. 7 on the Richter scale is what I would guesstimate. When i don’t feel my faith, somehow there’s a reminder that I’m not in charge and the panic that wants to rush in is dammed up again. It’s incumbent upon me to be okay even when I don’t see “okay” anywhere in my midst.

I am convinced that a revolution is unavoidable. I cannot say when or where it will start, but I do believe things must change and I also believe that it is not going to be a simple transition. The current situation feels like a coup and I don’t believe the perpetrators will go away without strong convincing. This is the new state of independence in america for me.

Here’s a little something I ran across at I wonder if it sounds a little familiar….

       In order to understand how men who obtained control of the Bank of England, and the British National Debt, also obtained control of the trade and commerce, and the monetary system of Britain’s American colonies, it will be sufficient if we pick up the threads of the story at the time Benjamin Franklin (1706-1790) went over to England to represent the interests of the men who had been associated with him in building up the prosperity of the American Colonies.

Robert L. Owen, former chairman, Committee on Banking and Currency, United States Senate, explains the matter on page 98 of Senate Document No. 23.  He states that when associates of the Rothschild’s asked Franklin how he accounted for the prosperous conditions prevailing in the colonies, he replied :  “That is simple — In the Colonies we issue our own money.  It is called Colonial Script — We issue it in proper proportion to the demands of trade and industry.”

Robert L. Owen remarked that not very long after the Rothschilds heard of this they realized the opportunity to exploit the situation with considerable profit to themselves.  The obvious thing to do was to have a law passed prohibiting the Colonial officials from issuing their own money and make it compulsory for them to obtain the money they required through the medium of the Banks.  Amschel Mayer Rothschild was still in Germany but he was supplying the British Government with Mercenary Troops at £8 per man.  Such was his influence that in 1764 he succeeded, through the Directors of the Bank of England, in having laws passed in accordance with his dictates.

The authorities in the Colonies had to discard their Script money.  They had to mortgage the Colonial assets and securities to the Bank of England in order to borrow the money they needed to carry on business.  Referring to those facts Benjamin Franklin stated.  “In one year the conditions were so reversed that the era of prosperity ended, and a depression set in, to such an extent that the streets of the Colonies were filled with unemployed.”  Franklin stated :  “The Bank of England refused to give more than 50 per cent of the face value of the Script when turned over as required by law.  The circulating medium of exchange was thus reduced by half”.[1]

Mr. Franklin disclosed the primary cause of the Revolution when he said:  “The Colonies would gladly have borne the little tax on tea and other matters had it not been that England took away from the Colonies their money, which created unemployment and dissatisfaction.”

Re-seating the Soul

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images credit- rudolf vlcek photography

i have been challenged since the beginning of this year by circumstances i am unable to control. it seems there have been more bumps in the road than i can remember in quite some years. fear creeps in and grabs the steering wheel now and again and i find myself drifting into unfamiliar territory and taking on more fear.

this spiritual journey i am taking has shifted. it’s almost as if i had completed another level of a video game and have moved on to a more challenging one. obstacles and challenges appear at odd intervals and my reactions to those have been influenced by the newness of the game environment.

i have switched my financial picture from steady to intermittent and this might be a major factor in the overview. my entire life has been synchronized by a regular paycheck and the last 6 months have been a very different picture. money comes in but not as a steady stream. i had no idea my security was welded to finances in this way. life is teaching me all about it now.

fear is like an invisible, odorless, tasteless toxic gas. it permeates on a cellular level and can quickly and succinctly debilitate its host (me). it can be deadly and often is. i am lucky though.

i am not dying today. i am feeling hopeful and i daresay it’s due to oprah. youtube is hosting her OWN super soul series and i somehow stumbled upon an interview with author gary zukav. i read “seat of the soul” some 30 years ago and it did change my life, albeit certainly not to the level oprah claims his insight changed hers. but hearing his message again, and being reminded that my journey is not a singular sailing (which fear would have me believe) but more it tune with a fleet of ships has brought a warm wind into the chilly mists through which i have been traveling these last few months.

in no way do i infer that i am evolved. i am a journeyman at best. but i did so need a reminder that i have more work to do and i need to get back to the fleet before i am swallowed by a storm.

thank you universe for reminding me that i may simply be lost temporarily and not in need of giving up. the story about baby ryan is powerful. as are most of gary z’s insights.

hang in there

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hangin out

this post is for my friend kvb. i know it’s really a pain in the ass right now. Feelings are overwhelming, life is nothing but battles and barriers, and you don’t feel very good about the choices that have gotten you to this position in your life. I get it. And I understand.

I hope you will understand too. You have met the joker of life that forcibly, bullishly, and laughingly reminds you that you are simply human. No matter how distasteful this mere fact of our own humanity is, it remains one ongoing and unwavering truth. We are only human and we don’t ace life all the time.

Sometimes life sneaks up behind us and scares the bejeesuz out of us. This is where you are picking yourself up from. It’s a position that Joseph Campbell described as being one of the common themes of stories and art throughout history. This mocking spirit usually depicted by a joker like face or harlequin like character. For centuries, life has a habit of surprising almost all of us with a huge “Gotcha!”

Please find comfort in the thought that you are no worse than anyone else. Certainly no better- but definitely no worse. I have survived this same big scare in my life. You can too. I have no doubt.

Hang in there! I believe in you!

sunday kind of love….. bette midler

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with the understanding that bette midler will be awarded a tony award for her role in “hello dolly” on broadway this evening, it reminded me that she has been part of the musical tapestry of my own life. although i don’t pull her oldies out to reminisce to in general, here in this forum, i will share these.

Beatles – In My Life Lyrics
There are places I remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever, not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life, I’ve loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more

Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more
In my life I love you more