This season heralds the onset of many changes in my life. I have had to accept that my vision is forever changed in the eye that had surgery early in the year. It is manageable, but also a distinct secession. I remain in gratitude that I have the opportunity to be here at all, which counters that loss.
My mother has relocated to another state to keep pace with a fixed income. The bonus for her is increased social activity and community for her as she is near her sister and niece/kids. It’s an adjustment as she has lived so close for 20 years. We still speak regularly, but there are adjustments to make.
This is the 1st year to be working entirely as an independent contractor. There are budgeting issues to absorb and anxiety issues to find new ways to deal with. It feels very very strange to lean into discomfort when worry comes up, however there is also a new plateau reached when resolution happens without giving in to panic.
I remain committed to continued growth both in my relationship with spirit and with my professional contribution to community. As long as opportunities continue to present themselves, I will continue to investigate their appropriateness. I only hope I don’t get lost chasing waterfalls.
I seen a rainbow yesterday
But too many storms have come and gone
Leavin’ a trace of not one God-given ray
Is it because my life is ten shades of gray
I pray all ten fade away
Seldom praise Him for the sunny days
And like His promise is true
Only my faith can undo
The many chances I blew
To bring my life to anew
Clear blue and unconditional skies
Have dried the tears from my eyes
No more lonely cries
My only bleedin’ hope
Is for the folk who can’t cope
With such an endurin’ pain
That it keeps ’em in the pourin’ rain
Who’s to blame
For tootin’ ‘caine into your own vein
What a shame
You shoot and aim for someone else’s brain
You claim the insane
And name this day in time
For fallin’ prey to crime
I say the system got you victim to your own mind
Dreams are hopeless aspirations
In hopes of comin’ true
Believe in yourself
The rest is up to me and you