I am Not a Body…. I am Free

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Like all explorers, we are drawn to discover what’s out there without knowing yet if we have the courage to face it. -Pema Chödrön
Like all explorers, we are drawn to discover what’s out there without knowing yet if we have the courage to face it.
-Pema Chödrön

The next chapter begins with feeling overwhelmed. I have undergone some shapeshifting lessons in surrender and letting go. Physically, emotionally, and spiritually, there have been metaphorical figures at a doorway that have appeared and beckoned me to step through which is what I have done in each instance with due diligence.

I chose this image as it represents how I am feeling in this moment. Most importantly though is some hope. I have been  employed in a series of positions that kept me in a quagmire of inability. Services rendered were based upon organizational requirements with little time to focus on client needs. One director brazenly repeated often that “we don’t do case management here” which echoed through my brainas a Greek chorus might repeat in the form of an oracle. Another owner consistently set every request up for an intake even before they could be deemed appropriate for the type of treatment provided. I have let go of this treatment modality in the form it takes today.

With this exercise, a myriad of feelings like freedom, opportunity, fiscal responsibility,pragmatism,  and ancient and appropriate fears. And in the midst of cacaphony, I am finding faith. Faith in my ability to traverse the terrain ahead. Faith that my surviving all the insanity and pestilence that has not annihalated me affords me comfort that I have well. Even if I am unable to do more. Faith that my journey is a learning process and requires attention and participation to be fulfilling.

“I am not a body. I am free. For I am still as God created me.”….. A Course in Miracles

 

Nowhere Man
The Beatles
Lyrics
He’s a real nowhere man
Sitting in his nowhere land
Making all his nowhere plans for nobody
Doesn’t have a point of view
Knows not where he’s going to
Isn’t he a bit like you and me?
Nowhere man please listen
You don’t know what you’re missing
Nowhere man, The world is at your command
He’s as blind as he can be
Just sees what he wants to see
Nowhere man, can you see me at all
Nowhere man don’t worry
Take your time, don’t hurry
Leave it all till somebody else
Lends you a hand
Ah, la, la, la, la
Doesn’t have a point of view
Knows not where he’s going to
Isn’t he a bit like you and me?
Nowhere man please listen
You don’t know what you’re missing
Nowhere man, The world is at your command
Ah, la, la, la, la
He’s a real nowhere man
Sitting in his nowhere land
Making all his nowhere plans for nobody
Making all his nowhere plans for nobody
Making all his nowhere plans for nobody

 

 

 

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