Feels So Different

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Image credit-David Root

Image credit-David Root
It is coming up on 2 weeks since my surgery crisis. It seems like a year. the physical challenges are dwarfed by the emotional responses not to mention the spiritual implications. I am not at ease with feeling helpless. Ironic certainly, as we are all helpless really.

These are tumultuous times we live in now. Choppy seas. Our vessel is pitching to and fro with fervor no doubt. There is an ancient drama playing itself out on our modern stage. It feels so frustrating because what seems so evident is lost on so many others who operate in an alternate agreement field. It remains a challenge to endure the day to day activities with the primal experiences tugging internally as the are.

 

Feel So Different
Sinéad O’Connor
Lyrics
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change
Courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference
I am not like I was before
I thought that nothing would change me
I was not listening anymore
Still you continued to affect me
I was not thinking anymore
Although I said I still was
I’d said “I don’t want anymore”
Because of bad experience
But now I feel so different
I feel so different
I feel so different
I have not seen freedom before
And I did not expect to
Don’t let me forget now I’m here
Help me to help you to behold you
I started off with many friends
And we spent a long time talking
I thought they meant every word they said
But like everyone else they were stalling
And now they seem so different
They seem so different
They seem so different
I should have hatred for you
But I do not have any
And I have always loved you
Oh you have taught me plenty
The whole time I’d never seen
All you had spread before me
The whole time I’d never seen
All I’d need was inside me
Now I feel so different
I feel so different
I feel so different
I feel so different
I feel so different

 

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